let's start with ease

a new pitter patter

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hello my friend,

as i type this, i truly have no idea what form pitter patter is going to take moving forward.

i’m indefinitely pausing the new and full moon updates (paid pitter patterers, you can read my letter to you here).

i was a little afraid to take a break from pitter patter over the holidays, because i kind of felt like i wouldn’t be able to return to it in its old form this year. of course i was right.

but as things go, sometimes you need to take a little bit of a pause to make sure what you’re doing feels in alignment with you.

i’m currently reconsidering the cadence of the letter–i will likely send it every two weeks or maybe even just once a month. committing to a weekly letter was a challenge i loved, but now that i’m more seriously working on book four, i want to give myself a little more grace around my writing.

instead of a strict structure (read: moon updates, a topic i’ve been pondering, a poetry prompt and tiktok), i think i want to start writing this more as a love note (to you and to me). a little less content-oriented, a little more heartfelt.

today’s love note feels like it should be around my new word of the year, ease.

ease

one of the most limiting beliefs of my life has been that good things have to be hard.

the most impactful jobs i’ve had took multiple interview rounds (one even lasting a month) and a ton of persuading. bea almost went to another couple but i bartered with her previous owner to get her. i felt like i was jumping over six foot tall hurdles to buy my house. my only long term relationship took almost a year of many… let’s call them “incidents” to solidify.

i don’t know exactly where i learned the belief that good things have to be hard, but i know i grew up in a family where everything felt like a big effort. whether it was something as exciting as going on vacation or as mundane as shovelling snow in the winter, everything had stress around it. when i think of my childhood home, i picture an energetic flow of anxiety in every day.

so many of my dreams came true in 2021, and in a lot of ways i approached my biggest accomplishments with worry.

in 2022, i’m saying no more. i am owning the mindset shift that good things don’t have to be hard. good things can come to me with ease.

i think focusing on ease this year will help me learn more about the relationship ease and effort have together. how can i dedicate myself in a grounded way to my dreams? what if the best things in my life are yet to come? and what if they come to me with ease?

xoxo
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