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good afternoon! i enjoyed reading this week's entry. LOL i have just recently tried my hand at having plants but im not sure if its going well lol im a certified plant killer but im wishing to change my ways smh i just hope my plants i got will still be alive by the end of this year lol. anyways moving on, i definitely have experience with a narcissist and it truly drains everything out of you and honestly its hard to tell their entire negative impact until you're out of the situation, luckily i shut down that person very quickly lol. But i definitely know what it feels like to lose yourself in someone else, in my recent relationship even though i felt very much in control of my choices and who i was as a person, i was always subconsciously aware of them, like anything i would do for myself i would think about if it would benefit them or us and i made choices that would benefit us my desire, in the end i did feel lost about who i was, i wasn't sure if my desires were even mine or ones i forced myself to have. it just happens when you love too hard. but after getting out of that relationship, i feel really free. anyways here's my poem

i feel free, completely alone

i get to do things on my terms for myself only

i drive blasting my music, that you hated listening to

i go out and enjoy myself, without waiting on you to be available and in the mood for company

i got my first tattoo and i want more

i wear whatever i want, not trying to dress in a way that you liked me best

come two months or two years, will i even recognize myself? will you still remember me? i dont care lol

in the end u were my favourite dead weight in my life that i had to cut off

because at the end of the day i only have myself, i'd rather be me than you, so

it's an honour it is to spend a lifetime getting to know myself

💙

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i FEEL you on loving too hard ❤️ and sorry you've had a similar experience, i love how you captured your transformation in the poem. p.s. sending you some green thumb plant energy 😂

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these are getting better every week! great way to spend my Thursday morning!

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thanks again for your suggestion! had a lot of fun writing about plants haha, appreciate you ❤️

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